Being in recovery a few years, I wonder: Am I still growing, am I stagnant, do I have the faith in God or myself anymore? Am I settling for second or third best when God tells me I can have the best?
You will find people who say that they have the recovery process down pat, and others who say they’re struggling, but I wonder where I’m at with all of this. Since being in recovery I’ve noticed major changes in my life, changes that are not conducive to recovery. Bills have mounted. I’ve lost the ability to manage a relationship. Am I losing myself, I wonder. It seems like my ability to understand the people I talk to on a daily basis has diminished. I am crying out for help. Am I drowning? Am I too frightened to try to make things work? Do I have the guts to overcome, to stand up to my own downfall? Do I have the guts to try to live my life as I did when I first came into recovery?
Why am I so frightened? Why has my ability to pray stopped? Why am I so scared of life all of a sudden?
Well there are people who think just like me who haven’t made it to recovery yet, who are in the shelters, who are sleeping under the bridges; I wonder if they say to themselves am I drowning am I too scared is all of this life worth living…It’s funny because homeless people are treated as third class citizens they now have mental health problems to ashamed to call home to afraid to come out of the comfort zone they have created within themselves. Homelessness seems to be a real chronic issue in the united states today so why aren’t we doing something about it. What do we have to do to make Government listen this is getting worse. What are the solutions is anyone trying to find one; or have we gotten so tied up with making a dollar that anything outside of family doesn’t count. God Bless the people who are kind enough to give there services to the shelters; although there are not many who do God’s will even though their God’s people. Connecticut do you have the guts to want to stop homelessness, do you have the Guts to give a few building or two for shelter space so we can house and feed people and not have to turn people away Connecticut do you have the guts…